MANIPULANDO

By
Erik Johansson...

Incleible,no???

Merry Xmas

Ufff....ahora si que ando un poco perdida en todo esto...muy atrasada...pero ya vendrá el nuevo año y escribe aun más...

Mientras...pasensela super chido en estas fiestas, mis mejores deseos para todos...


Merry Xmas & Happy New Year....desde Mexico :D

2 1/2

Two Months and a half!!!!

He's gonna be here for

t-w-o

m-o-n-t-h-s

&

1/2...

I'm just so happy!!!!

Green Tea

Influenza

Para todos aquellos que me leen y me conoces, y también para aquellos que no pero que aun así me siguen, quisiera compartir lo siguiente:

Tengo una hermana que es enfermera, este fin de semana estuvo trabajando en el área de urgencias del Hospital Adolfo López Mateos de la cd. de Toluca... Cuando llego a casa, insistivamente nos pidió que tratáramos de usar el cubre-bocas por lo menos para andar en el camión. La razón? Se ha presentado un incremento en los casos de Influenza Humana...

Se los comento pues muchos, allá afuera, creen que fue un invento del gobierno para hacer alguna movida chueca, pero no, esta sucediendo y por lo menos en el estado de México se están previniendo las autoridades del sector salud para tratar a los cientos de infectados que se espera habrá para la época de invierno...

Les comparto esto, no para alarmarnos, sino para tomar las medidas necesarias para evitar contagios... pasen la voz... sin alarmar... sólo para tomar precauciones... Ya saben, usar tapabocas por lo menos en lugares demasiado conglomerados, lavarse las manos frecuentemente; si están enfermos de gripa, quedense en casa a reposar, si estornudan o tosen, por favor, cubran su boca con un pañuelo o con parte de su ropa...

Por la salud de todos, hay que seguir con estos hábitos... Antes de que sea mayor el contagio.

Saludos!!!

Cosas Insignificantes...

A veces lo escencial, pasa desapercibido...

Easy...

SEX is...

LOVE isn't...

"Jamie Harris is a neurotic, bright 25-year-old with a career naming peculiar consumer products. Though she gives them their identities, she's rather confused about her own. After dating a string of jerks, she's bewildered about whom to trust or how to find true intimacy. When two seemingly honorable men orbit around her, Jamie must confront what she is most afraid of"

Hummm....nice movie....I've seen it many times...
I guess I'll watch it this wkn as I have nothing better to do...

Kiss

Enjoy your weekend

Love,

Dal

So true!!!

It's been...

a really weird day.

First, I had a dream with a group of great guys I had the pleasure to meet about two years ago, at different time: Beto, Rojo, Mattew, Julian... Well, the dream was good as we all were back at school, all sitting at the café; but it was also weird as I never had a lunch with all of them together. We did use to hang out when I was at CILC and all of them arrived and got ready for their classes, but that was it. I only had lunch and breakfast with Beto and Mattew... That's some of the things I really missed.

Then, when I arrived at work and opened my email, I saw a message from him...after so many months, not too many words, he just said hi and asked how I was...he thinks I'm mad at him, but I'm not...I just decided not to talk to him or call or write as he never does it either!! I answered back, just saying I am NOT mad and that I'm happy with my new job (which is half true hehe)

After that, I got a message from Juan, he just told me Bob (our big boss) wants to make him supervisor in Mexico for a year...and he was asking me for permission!! Of course, I'll let him come down, es de lo que pido mi limosna hahaha... And then he called at the plant, but I was a bit busy so I couldn't talk to him...

So many things...yesterday I saw one of my best friends, she just got separated, she might be pregnant also...but she seems to be okay... She and her husband used to argue a lot, about silly things, but he always ended up kicking her out their house and that's what my friend couldn't stand anymore. So she moved out. She was telling me that, somehow, she knows that Pepe doesn't love her anymore, that he was with her just because of the routine, and she doesn't want that... After hearing that, I advised her to do what she thinks is the best, cause I do believe that you cannot be with someone who does not love you back, and at the end, she'll be much better by her own... Hope she stays calm...

Finally, tomorrow is Yaha's birthday, well it was last Tuesday, but we'll celebrate till tomorrow...something very simple...just Japanese food, and Vodka...Gise, maybe Robert...and Gise's boyfriend!!

Hummmmm....What really made me think a lot was his email, hope he's fine...I think I still have some felling for him...I gotta admit it, but it's different now, cause Juan is everything for me...but it's hard to forget someone who was your first love, who meant a lot to you... Anyway, I'm not expecting anything else from him, i'm not even expecting to see him again... I don't want to... everything is better without him... It's been more than a year since I last saw him...good times though...

Yes, I do...

Do you believe in love

at first sight??

I do

It happened on September 19th, 1985

One more year...

Today, 24 years ago, Mexico suffered one of the worst tragedies in our history. A magnitude 8.1 earthquake struck Mexico city on 19 September 1985 at 7:19 local time, caused the deaths of about 10,000 people and serious damage in the city. The complete seismic event consisted of four quakes. The main and most powerful shock occurred 19 September, followed by two aftershocks.

The amount of people who died is not certain, some say it was about 2 or 3 thousand, but I consider that the number was even bigger...

Some were sleeping, others already at work...some walking on the streets when this horrible earthquake surprised them ...The earthquake had long-term consequences in everybody lives, especially of those who unfortunately were injured, lost their families or relatives & their houses.

But one more time, Mexican showed that we can be together, supporting each other no matter how difficult the situation is...

I was only one year, but my sisters told me it was really shocking to see what was happening in Mexico city on the TV.

As many other dates, this is one we will never forget!!

Tiempo...

Hace cuanto tiempo que no te veía?

Hace cuanto que no sentía tus brazos...que no olía tu aroma??

Tu cabello negro, tu gorra de color, tus ojos rasgados

y esa manera de abrazarme que me hace temblar.

De cierta manera te había olvidado,

como olvido la cena de todos los días,

como olvido las horas durante el trabajo...

Cuando volví en sí, frente a ti,

tu sonrisa perfecta, tu mirada,

y esa simpatía que me enamoro de ti...

So as not to miss you a lot....

Bad day...

Last two weeks were amazing, love sharing some time with mi Juanito; but yesterday was not a good day. Well, for me it was a bit sad as it was the last day I was spending with him... but when I got home I found out that my two cousins, who were living with us for almost 13 years, left the house!!! It's been hard for my mom as we don't know anything about them. Alfredo and Erick, 19 and 17 years old each, left the house... They are both grown-ups but we know what's happening in Mexico now, all the insecurity out there... They know how to work but still, we are sooo worried!!

I just hope they are okay, whenever they are.

And also, wish Juan has a good flight and gets home save & sound!!

Hard day!!!

mi méxico querido...full of colors & beauty!!

Viva México...

Ahora si que no he tenido tiempo de escribir...nada...pero tengo una muy buena justificación!! Si, Juanito sigue aquí, así que he tratado de pasar mucho tiempo con él...aunque se va este jueves...pero al parecer quieren dejarlo como supervisor en México, por lo menos durante 6 meses...aun no le he comentado a nadie, pues no es seguro, pero si me emociona!!

Bueno, tengo aun mucho trabajo que hacer antes de partir a casa...así que me voy, pero antes...

Disfruten los festejos de nuestra Independencia, no beban demasiado alcohol y si es así, no manejen!!

Cuidense mucho y VIVA MÉXICO

Quick little note before this weekend

Well I just want to say that I'm very happy now, because not only Juan is here, but also I feel good & frustrated with my job, but it's okay, i'm getting used to all this stuff...and i enjoy the little time i usually spend with my friends Robert, Yaha, Gise & Bere!!! And my big family, my brother, my sisters and my parents...

And...I was thinking, lately, of all the time i wasted...waitin' for him, there, at the same place, beggin' for something i can get by my own means...beggin' for something that someone else could give me...and here i am, with someone i never imagine to be with, cause he's different...but still the best for me...i know he won't be here all the time, but i do know he cares about me and that's all that matters...that's all that will ever matter!!

Once, at University, i heard a phrase "If you can't be with the one you love, love the one you're with", but that it's just so unfair...so try to be with someone you love and who also loves you back!!

Have an excellent weekend!!!

No lo había pensado?

Bueno, en realidad si...

Hoy por la mañana, al revisar mi blog, después de pasar un fin de semana extrañando a Juan y disfrutando de todos los quehaceres que tengo que realizar en casa; me sorprendio ver un comentario de Zully, quien por cierto, tiene un blog excelente, con crónicas super divertidas y de grandes enseñanzas...bueno, pues Zully me preguntó el por qué escribo en Inglés...

Mmm, buena pregunta!!

Al principio lo hice porque quería narrar lo que me pasaba todos los días y que de esta forma Juan supiera que onda con mi vida cuando él no está! Pero creo que a él no se le da mucho esto de la tecnología, y pues casi no lo ve, más bien, nunca lo ve..jaja

Y bueno, después porque estudié 5 años en la Facultad de Lenguas trabajé casí 4 años como profesora de inglés; y ahora sirvo de traductora-interprete-agente de compras-recursos humanos- en una empresa Canadiense...y pues de cierta manera he dejado de practicar mi inglés...no ultimamente, ya que las visitas constantes de nuestros jefes me ayudan mucho...

En fin, me dio gusto saber que alguien, aparte de Mattew, ha dejado un comentario en mi blog...

Por cierto, debo decirles que Juan regreso hoy...jaja...con cara de angustia...cansado pues sólo pudo estar en Canada por dos días...enojado porque según él me escribió el viernes y ayer...pero no recibí nada...lo juro :( Creo que sólo se quedará esta semana, con Abner mi otro jefe, y luego se irá, no podremos salir, pero verlo todos los días y cruzar algunas palabras es suficiente para ambos...

Two Weeks

Last two weeks were full of work, adventures, happiness, tiredness, excitement, expectations...

The first day I saw him again was weird, really weird, as nobody knows we are dating we had no way to talk to each other, just look at each other through my office window.

On the first week we had an audit, everything went really well & we got a new contract with a big Tobacco Company!! This is good news, MIMI is growing faster than we expected!! That's why I've been very busy lately, and I'll be for the rest of the year, but it's okay, now I started liking my job even though there are lots of things I miss of CILC.

Then, last weekend Juan and I got away from Abner, who's my other boss! We went to Taxco, a magic small town in Mexico. Abner doesn't know about us, so Juan said he was going by himself!! We spent a night there, everything was so perfect, I never had a experience like this... Walk, hold hands, kiss on the middle of the main square, go into the church together...have dinner, have breakfast together!!!
It was just amazing, nice to hear him saying I was his wife!!! That was really cool!!

But today everything finished!! He left at 10.00 am and went to the airport...at least this time I didn't cry, that's because I know he's coming back next week, and then in October!!
Well, that's what happened in my life during the last two weeks, now everything is back to normal except for all the work I have right now!!!!

...

Sooo many things...

have happened since two weeks ago...
I'll try to tell you later when everything calms down...now...everything is still too busy...
I'm too confused to tell...
But only one thing is true...last weekend was amazing!!!

Door

it's time to close the door i was just keeping open for you...

it's time to turn to the next page of my own story...

it's time to leave you behind...

it's time to let you go...

it's time to close the door i was keeping open for you &

open a new one ...

i don't want anything more than to see your face when i open the door...

my heart is already beating...tomorrow is the day...after almost ten months...i'm really grateful 'coz God brought you here one more time...

WHAT GOES AROUND...

COMES AROUND

loneliness

Being apart and lonely is like rain.

It climbs towards evening from the ocean plains;

from flat places, rolling and remote,

it climbs to heaven, which is its old abode.

And only when leaving heaven drops upon the city.

It rains down on us in those twittering hours

when the streets turn their faces to the dawn,

and when two bodies who have found nothing,

dissapointed and depressed, roll over;

and when two people who despise eachother

have to sleep together in one bed-

that is when loneliness receives the rivers...

Rainer Maria Rilke

Simpatía por el diablo

El infierno es un invento ancestral utilizado para darle de comer a los sacerdotes o a los psiquiatras. El demonio existe, claro que existe, pero es un pobre mediocre que no hace otra cosa que tratar de integrarse a los humanos.

Desde el más humilde barrendero, el periodista, el maestro de primaria, los empresarios, los rectores del chingo de universidades que lamen la superficie capitalina, las estrellas de cine y televisión, el ama de casa que se lleva las manos del vientre por la enorme soledad, los amantes que miran a la luna como cómplice de desprecios, los secretarios de las secretarías que secretan sarcasmos, les damos color a las variantes del miedo...

Todos Santos por Jesús Humberto Florencia

Muerte y Vida de Gustav Klimt

¿Me recuerdas?

¿En algún momento del día me recuerdas?

¿Te paso por la mente...? Mientras sonríes como yo lo hago en las noches, en las que no me queda nada más que tu recuerdo en mi memoria y las ganas atrapadas en el pecho.

¿Me recuerdas?
Mientras pasa el día e imagino verte caminar...

¿Me recuerdas?
Mientras hablas con ellos que fingen, o no, escuchar lo que dices,lo que haces...y sólo observan...

¿Me recuerdas?
Cuando caminas a lado de alguien más, mientras te diriges,mientras comes, mientras sueñas profundamente...

¿Me recuerdas?
En el momento de abrir la puerta del coche, de abrir los libros,de escuchar, de ser escuchado...Cuando finges recordar o no a cada persona que te toca escuchar, cuando las vez a los ojos...

Te observo caminar, hablar, platicar, sonreir...

Me pierdo en tu recuerdo, imaginando cada uno de tus movimientos y deseando en realidad sentir siempre tus manos acariciando mi espalda...

Quisiera ver esa sonrisa siempre...

¿Me recuerdas?

Yo si... SIEMPRE... aun sigues en mis sueños...

Gone

You dropped the bomb
And now you're gone
I held you dear
You swallowed my fears
And now I've drunk my last beer with you...

Will you ever know...
That bitterness and anger left me long ago
Only sadness remains
And it will pass

Finally...

my first holiday...

& after 9 months, I'll see Juan again...
I'll finish reading three books I started and never finished...
I'll go out for a run... I'll see old friends...
I'll relax...
I'll think about what and where I wanna go from now on...

16:20

Hi, would you ever call me,
someday, or text me...
I miss you and I'm so intrigued,
I don't know anything about you,
you didn't even say goodbye...

I thought maybe you knew the news,

that I'm gonna be there in 2 wks with all big bosses

...so see you....

Anything you want me to bring you

or something..??

Still there

it'd been a long time before i dreamt about him...again...9 or 10 months before...maybe...i don't know!

the thing is that i dreamt about him last Saturday, we were walking, holding hands as we never did, we were laughing, but suddenly we came deep into a crowded street market...we were looking for a place to sit down and had a good talk...it was very foggy, almost dark...lots of people, and i didn't look like me...i was different, wearing a very colorful and long dress...no sweater...

but then, he disappeared, got lost in the dark...

yesterday he signed in, my heart started beating so hard...i didn't talk to him...he didn't talk to me either...it hurts but it's the best thing to do...it's been a year since i last talked and saw him...

Why can't get away from all these memories...???

Don't let me make the same mistake again...

Yes, it's hard to let people go...

Don’t speak to me this way
Don’t ever let me say
Don’t leave me again

I never felt this loss before
And the world is closing doors
I never wanted anything more

Don’t hug me this way
Don’t touch me this way
Don’t hug me again
Don’t hug me this way
Don’t touch me this way
Don’t hug me this again

I never felt this loss before
And the world is closing doors
I never wanted anything more

Don’t let me make the same mistake again
Please, don’t let me make the same mistake again
Don’t let me make the same mistake again

I never felt this loss before
And the world is closing doors
I never wanted anything more

Please, Don’t let me make the same mistake again....
Don't let me make the same mistake again...

Lyrics by Moby
Song: Mistake
Album: Wait for me

Fragmentos ...

"Te extraño... Pero me pregunto qué exactamente extraño de ti. Extraño tus ojos, tu mirada, esa que tienes cuando me deseas y no estoy del todo accesible...y no estás del todo accesible...

Extraño tus manos, tu tacto seguro, suave y a la vez fuerte...ese con el que me avisas que estás allí, ese con el que me provocas, ese que esconde un lenguaje secreto que sólo tu y yo sabemos. Ese que me toca cada centìmetro de piel con tal dedicación que siento que me conoce mejor que yo, porque sabe acariciarme con sutileza en la espalda y con calentura en los pezones... Amo esa imagen: tus dedos grandes, suavez, perfectos presionando con las yemas mis pezones erectos...

Extraño tu boca bien formada, tus labios gruesos y tibios, tus besos cálidos, húmedos, excitantes... Extraño tus labios deslizándose por mi cuello, en medio de mis senos, en mi vientre, en mis muslos...por esos lugares que te desean y te añoran, y que no están completos si no estás aquí.

Extraño tanto tu voz...tus palabras de amor..."te amo", "te deseo", "quiero abrazarte"...

Por hoy te he extrañado demasiado...

A lion called Christian...

Yesterday, after doing some exercise & trying to sew a bag by hand, which was a complete failure as i don't know how to do it lol, i sat in front of the TV with my bro who was watching a documentary about two men who raised a lion & called him Christian; some of you might have heard about it... They showed this video which is very touching...

This is the story:

In London, during the 60s, you were allowed to buy an exotic animal. So 2 men named Ace and John bought a lion, who they named Christian. After 8 months or so, the lion was getting too big for their apartment. They took him to Kenya, so that George Adamson could look after him. The 2 men returned after a year, and were told the lion would not remember him. The lion gave a long look at them, then the men called his name. Christian the Lion ran off to them, remembering them.

Cute, isn't it??

Sin Sentido...

Quisiera volver a escribirte y así sentirte una vez más aquí...

Lo pienso, mientras acaricio el ayer, suspiro pensando que estarás bien en otro lugar

.................................................

Aun no he podido dejar de pensar...

de recordar...de volver a sentir...

Ahora el piso es más limpio que ayer...

Y para no seguir en el mismo lugar, decidí meterte en una pequeña caja y guardarte en un lugar especial ... muy cerca del corazón...

Comienzo a sentirme mejor...

En verdad espero que te encuentres bien donde quiera que estés...

Wait For Me...

Wait For Me is Moby's new album.

I've just listened to it once...and I consider it one of Moby's best records...

If you have nothing to do this weekend, you can go and buy it...listen to it...& relax...

My weekend?? Going to the cinema, havin' coffee, maybe visiting Robert after his eyes operation...having my aunts at home...going to my brother's football match & of course...still having school...boring...

Enjoy your weekend!!!

Wedding bells...

Will: Uh, Grace, are you in there? I hope you're not doing--anything crazy.

Grace: Hi. What do you think?

Will: You look beautiful.

Grace: Really? I think it needs to be taken in.

Will: Yeah. Honey, I think maybe you need to be taken in. Sweetie, look-- Look at me. You're not getting married.

Grace: I know. I'm never going to wear one of these things, am I?

Will: Sweetie. You're a beautiful, intelligent woman, and somewhere out--

Grace: Don't give me the stock, best friend response. Be honest. This may never happen for me.
Will: You know what? It--It may not.

Grace: Thank you for telling me the truth.

Will: You're welcome.

Grace: Damn, that was harsh. What were you thinking?

Will: What? But-- You just ask me to--

Grace: I don't care. You know me better than that. The next time I ask you to tell me the truth, you give me the stock best friend response.

Will: Ok. You're beautiful, you're going to meet a doctor tomorrow, and you'll be married by the weekend.

Grace: Thank you.

Yesterday, while I was on my way home I passed by a bakery and felt like having a delicious piece of bread…I got in…the lady at the shop is very kind and loves making conversation with everybody…

So there was I, when suddenly she asked me if I’d like to get married. “Yes” I nodded… ‘Do you have a b-friend?’ ‘Yes’ ‘Where does he live?’ ‘In Canada, but he’s a Filipino guy’ ‘Would you like to marry him?’ ‘I think so…I haven’t though about it actually’ ‘Does he want to marry you?’ ‘I suppose, but again, we haven’t talked about it’….

The small talk was weird, she asked me things I had no answers for…some years ago I would not even consider to have a partner…wouldn’t imagine myself wearing a wedding dress…but now…I think that one part of me really desires to be a beautiful bride…and get married in a small but gorgeous church…

But who knows…if I don’t get marry, then I’ll travel around the world…

Sin nombre...

Era cerca de la media noche, y aquella estrella a la que le había dedicado un momento de mi vida había desaparecido del cielo, y con ella, distintos sentimientos.

¿Qué si volverá a pensar? Tal vez, no lo dudo, aunque mi ingenuo pensamiento da vueltas en si mismo, tambaleándose en letras aun más extrañas para sí.

Separada de lo que soy, lo que era, y lo que ciegamente intento ser. Sin importar ocasiones, recuerdos ni malintencionadas palabras...

Ha pasado mucho tiempo, más del que pudieras pensar...mientras abrazaba la almohada y juraba en mi mente que no volvería a suceder.

Todo comienza a ser igual, como si nunca hubiera pasado, sólo necesito tiempo...

Currently listening to Björk

I've learnt many good things from my friend Robert, and he's a huge fan of this woman...

I like some of her songs...& lately I've been listening to her music more..and more...

This is my favorite song: Innocence...

And this is my favorite part of the song:

When I once was

Untouchable

Innocence roared

Still amazes

Untouchable

Innocence

It's still here

But in different places..

Love her dress lol

Socrates, thanks for your help!!!

In ancient Greece (469 - 399 BC) Socrates was widely lauded for his wisdom. One day the great philosopher came upon an acquaintance that ran up to him excitedly and said

"Socrates, do you know what I just heard about one of your students?"

"Wait a moment," Socrates replied. "Before you tell me I'd like you to pass a little test. It's called the Triple Filter Test."

"Triple filter?"

"That's right," Socrates continued. "Before you talk to me about my student let's take a moment to filter what you're going to say. The first filter is Truth. Have you made absolutely sure that what you are about to tell me is true?"

"No," the man said, "actually I just heard about it and..."

"All right," said Socrates. "So you don't really know if it's true or not. Now let's try the second filter, the filter of Goodness. Is what you are about to tell me about my student something good?"

"No, on the contrary..."

"So," Socrates continued, "you want to tell me something bad about him, even though you're not certain it's true?"

The man shrugged, a little embarrassed.

Socrates continued. "You may still pass the test though, because there is a third filter - the filter of Usefulness. Is what you want to tell me about my student going to be useful to me?"

"No, not really"

"Well," concluded Socrates, "if what you want to tell me is neither true nor Good nor even useful, why tell it to me at all?"

The man was defeated and ashamed.

This is the reason Socrates was a great philosopher and held in such high esteem.

Okay, this is nice and very intelligent…but if it’s very tricky and almost impossible, don’t you think? But still I do think that it’s something we should take into consideration before gossiping about someone or something we are not really sure…

Anyway, I found another good way to use this Triple Filter Test as it’s helped me a lot recently.

Some neuroscientist believe that we have thousand of thoughts running through our heads, most of them are just the same ones being recycled, and have no purpose at all. In fact, it might often be the case that we wake up and start the day with some niggly thought that keeps nagging us during the day, and stops us enjoying what we do, or appreciate good things that the day could be offering us, but nothing else...

These niggly thoughts can be about anything, or anyone, they could be real or imagined. We might think that the day we have ahead will be difficult, something we have planned may not succeed, the bus might be late…some co-workers may disagree with our ideas, or don’t like us, or we don’t like them…or we've just have started a new job and don’t like it too much…and the list can go on, and these thoughts can be taken on our lives…they can get bigger and bigger, louder and louder in our heads until we totally forget about the beautiful world going around us…just because we are obsessed with the thoughts!!!

And what’s more, we can’t find the way to switch them off, or get the volume control to turn the noise down, or change the channel to listen something different…

Well let’s use this technique…the T.U.G. technique…very similar to Socrate’s one...hehe

So, it works very similar to the story above…every time we become aware of thoughts that we've had before, which bother us, make you feel irritated or sad, cause we think negatively about a situation or person, STOP and let's ask ourselves these three questions:

Is what I am thinking TRUE? ( and if you answer YES, ask yourself "How do I know it is true?" - we may not know but just assume we know!!)

Is what I am thinking USEFUL? (does it help me clarify something or just confuse me more?)

Do those thoughts make me feel GOOD? (in myself, about myself, about others, about the situation)

If the answer to ANY of the above questions is NO, then think about something else that does make you feel good.

The trick to the technique is to stop ourselves the SECOND we realize about these thoughts, analize them and don’t let them to take control. And of course, sometimes we do have thoughts that keep coming back time and time again – but never let them run away with themselves.

So, let’s keep on TUGging (I don’t even know if this word exists..hehe) at those niggling thoughts, and start choosing the ones we want to have which are true, very useful and make you feel really good…which I know it’s like an Utopia but it really helps…believe me…

For those who don’t know me, I’m a very nervous person…I’m always worried about the present and the future…in my personal and emotional life, and also at work…I can hardly manage not to be worried about other people or things…and that’s not healthy, it is very stressful…and most of times nothing happens…it’s just me and all those ugly thoughts inside my head that confuse me…

Very long but hope it helps you some time!!!

Muse Concert...1 year ago...

Last year i was having such a good time with Robert, Fabi & his brother Irving in Guadalajara, MUSE was giving a concert, well actually it was one day before, July 18th, but we stayed there till the next day.

Fabi, Robert & Irving

This was my second concert with Robert and Irving, one year before we'd been to Gwen Stefani's concert in "El Palacio de los Deportes"...something fun about this was that we got very wet in both concerts...hehe

We took the bus to Guadalajara on Tuesday night, we arrived there on Friday morning, we went to this amazing hostal called "Las Brujas"...had a shower and then we went to Muse's authograph signing at the "Centro Magno", in Mixup...we couldn't get a signature cause we arrived late and they we just allowed to give 130 signatures, and there were lots of fans...we asked a guy from Toluca to sign Irving's CD, at least we could get that!! That day it rained too...but as it was hot, we didn't care...i just remember having drunk like a litre of beer, it was so delicious...very cold...

Irish pub in Guadalajara...

After that we went to "Telmex" stadium cause the concert was about to start, we lined up and again...it rained cats & dogs, i alwasy carry my umbrella, and that day was not an exception...but it was very small so Fabi and me were able to cover a bit...then we got in...bought some coffee and t-shirts...i bought Juan a green t-shirt, it's the only one he uses..he really likes it and it suits him very well =)....

Anyway, the concert was amazing...one of the best places i've ever been to...Mattew has such a great voice, so cute and handsome...Chris has a great buttom...i have to say...hehehe...and Irving looks like Dominic...they all are fantastic...nice musicians...very cute!!!

the concert was about to start

In the concert...

The only thing i didn't like about the concert was that it lasted just one hour...so unfair..but at least i met them...

The next day we went to Zapopan, we took the "turibus" wish is a bus that is open on the second floor and takes you to look around the city...but we got some bad news and had to return...

A fat mariachi....in Zapopan

Anyway, it was worth just to see Muse playing...i don't like Mattew...i mean, physically, but he's great at playing the guitar and singing...

Now Muse is working on their new album...can't wait to hear it...

Three girls...

Almost two years ago, we started writing our story...

At first it was just for fun, then i needed someone to guide me and there she was..."G"...more experienced and good listener...always trying to make me feel good...to support me...

"Y" was just a little girl, she's grown and matured a lot since we've met...she used to be our little girl...not any more...

So there we are...three girls...three friends who like spending time together...& this is one of the best moments we've shared...

**Last Friday we went to the cinema with Robert, we saw "The Proposal", nice movie, made me laugh a lot...i hadn't smiled and laughed as much as that day!!!

After that, Robert had to go home cause he had to work the next day, and we went to buy some groceries to cook breakfast...and of course, we got some grape juice for our traditional Vodka...hehe

We got to Y's house, and got ready to start the party...no, wait...it wasn't a party...we just updated with all that had happened to us very recently...then we started singing!! I began with a song called "Perfume de Gardenias"...i love that song...beautiful song, nice rythm...i just love it...i sang with Alejandro Fernandez, i'm not a fan but he's okay...

The best part of the night was when we were dancing..."Burundanga", "Techno Cumbia", some bachata...among others...it was fun!!

And then...i was very sleepy, it was 4 o'clock in the morning and i hadn't had much sleep that week, i was tired and the next day i had to wake up early as my brother was playing at Potros and it was gonna be the only game i could go (i didn't go to school, by the way)...The next morning, we can hardly woke up, i was thirsty...my first hangover even though i didn't get drunk!!!

Anyway, everything was worth, this Friday i'm seeing them again and then we rest for two weeks as Y is going home for some holiday...and then i get a week off in August and hope i can go away for some days to "el bosque" with Robert...i've been thinking a lot about it and i'd prefer going there than Guadalajara...but if we can go both places, it'd be also great!!!

note 1: My bro's team lost today...good luck for my cousin who's playing 2morro...
note 2: 2day was my last class with Rafael, such an excellent teacher...learnt a lot.
note 3: loved the blouse Robert bought for his mum's b-day.
note 4: my shoes hurt me...poor me!!
note 5: started watching the 2nd season of "pushing daisies"...
note 6: a party next to my house...i won't have to much sleep 2night...
note 7: last but not least, i got my first comment, thanx Mattew 4 the post & the advice, hadn't told anything cause it's not that good yet...just starting...but it's fun...hope to see you soon